Fuck It.

Haven't blogged in a week. So much has gone/is going on. It's like nothing can ever go right for me. Nothing. Sometimes I just wish I could make it all go away. I've made a little progress though. I have somewhere to live.

Not going to lie, life sucks so much right now. Like I keep getting shitted on... all the time. Most nights, I just cry myself to sleep. It makes the hurt go away for a little while.

Yes, it's been three months and I'm still hurting. It also doesn't help that I have other shit going on as well.

I try so hard to stay strong, keep my head up, put up a happy front, all of that bullshit... but it's getting unbearable. One can only pretend for so long. I just want the worry, pain, and the hurt to go away. That's all.

Life gets everyone down, some more than others. I feel like I've been KO'ed in the 13th round. I'm just tired. Tired of everything.

I feel like this summer has been a roller coaster. However, only one that goes two ways: up or down. There's been great times, and there's bad times. I will say that I haven't truly been myself. Different factors play into that, but shit I haven't been ME. I just wanna get back to that.

I just want to be happy again.